just for you♥ ♥ ♥

warning: this post have A LOT of lovey-dovey contents =)


It is specially dedicated to my loving boyfriend ♥


dear, its your birthday today. you are another year older now. time to be mature and don't always so naughty. sad things happened and we cant be together on this particular day.i am sure your grandma will always be by your side blessing you each and every day.be strong k? may god bless her.anyhow, of course i am disappointed.very very indeed but we cant stop things from happening right? its our 2years anniversary too do u know that? u have to replace back this day when you are back okay?♥


its been exactly 2 years we have been together. we have gone through many obstacles. your patience is really indescribable. sometimes i really wonder how can you stand my tantrums without any complain? i get angry so easily and sometimes over small tiny little matters but yet you are always there to make me smile again =)how could i not love someone like you?
from the very first day we are together, you started protecting me like no one else did. you wont let me get hurt. even if there is bruise on my knee you will say how clumsy am i and start rubbing it for me.
you will pamper me like a princess. trying your very best to get me the things that i want.
whenever i am sad, you will be always there for me to wipe off my tears
you even let me bite your arms until there is a mark that lasted for few days =P
you often help me in my studies, from high school and till now that we are in college. i remembered the emotion u put on your face when u teaches me again and again till i understand.
if i am sick, you will definitely be the first one to buy me medicine. you will be awake the whole night just to see if i get to sleep well. you bought all my gastric and menstrual pain medicine
baby boy, can you see that you are already a part of me?
i wish we will have more anniversaries =)



somehow i couldn't accept the fact that i am all alone here without you by my side on our special day.i cant give you a hug and wish you happy birthday. we are suppose to be studying together. having our romantic dinner together as planned. i am not used to not seeing you for so many days. i miss your touch. i miss you coming to my house early every morning when i am still asleep and then we will continue our sleep together. this few days, whenever i wake up i am alone =( i really wish you will be back soon and i can start concentrating on my studies. finals are around the corner i cant let myself fail.

anyway, here i am dear. just wanna wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY 2 YEARS. i love you like i always do and i know you love me too =)













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i'v been abandoning my blog for a long time
i shall just update bout my trip to penang with the collegemates during the sem break
there are 10 of us, stayed in batu feringgi
the taffic in penang are really congested. there are too many vehicles
afterall, it was an awesome trip
i believe all of us had so a great time including me =)
we should plan for another trip for this coming sem break again, right babes?
luckily i was able to join or else i will be missing out all the FUN
there are so many pictures taken but i cant pass them all up
here are some for your viewing =P



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us before the banana boat ride



me, anne, sharon and pui theng having fun with the wave *much love*



me and reagan



mun leong



darling anne



sharon babe



pui theng..poor her..the boys always bully her



the ladies! they are all as gorgeous as always



vanessa and me







the childish boys







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yippee

hooray! semester 2 is finally over! having my sem break now. i am looking forward for the penang trip with my collegemates!

great experience <3

the contest is finally over. although i didn't win but yet, i'm still glad i joined.out of 299 candidates at least i get to be in the final 12. it's an awesome experience. i'm gonna miss the other girls so badly. we had so much fun in the workshop. the moments we spent with amber chia and ning baizura was unforgettable.i even had modelling lessons with professional models, make up and hair styling classes. the organiser was great. awww, i'm missing all of them so badly now. i hope we could meet up one day. on the other hand, i love to walk on the runway! it feels so amazing. i shall consider doing it again =) since i was young, i always wanted to be a model. at least for now i get to feel what is it like to catwalk on the runway in front of big crowds. i wasn't nervous that time until the very moment i need to speak in public. there were millions of butterflies in my tummy, when i was asked to answer the question i was blank. i cant remember what mummy taught me to answer. that is where i screwed up. i must learn to be more confident. no matter what, i'm still proud of myself. i know daddy and mummy are proud of me too. i can see it through the smile on their face at the very moment i first step out to the runway. thank you for all that came and supported me. i love you guys. i hope i didn't disappoint you guys by not winning =). besides, i'm satisfied with what i got XD

omg

OMFG!!
I'm now in top 12!
i seriously didn't expect to be chosen. i was just so lucky enough. final round will be at the 8th of November. i have two workshop to attend which consist of makeup classes, healthy lifestyle, catwalk, how to pose, etc. actually i'm really considering whether to continue or not. I'm dead nervous ok. i have stage fright. i hope i don't need to talk on the stage in front of so many audiences during finals. give me more catwalks to do, i don't mind. I'll be totally speechless if i have to talk on stage =S I'll just hope for the best!

besides, thanks for all that had been supporting me throughout this contest.
i love you guys

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not feeling that well right now
having flu, cough and sore throat
my voice changed
i'm worry it doesnt get better by this saturday
otherwise, how am i going to talk on stage or whatsoever =(
besides, i have a really big bruise on my left knee and i dont know how could i be so clumsy to fall in public?. its not gonna heal by this saturday!
i was chosen for this philip's model search contest and its this SATURDAY.
yes, i'm repeating its this SATURDAY
i lost my voice and i have a big bruise on my knee
how am i to compete? =(
plus, i am afraid i will embarrass myself on stage * i have stage fright*
well, i shall just take this chance as an experience
so, wish me luck everyone!

i'm wondering...

how much more HOPE i can still put in US??